WHO AM I?By: Jeffrey P. Ayalin
I have tred the well worn path of limitless mental toil,
I have stumbled under the heavy burden
Imposed by the cruel, tyrannical oppressors of my mind.
Although I have searched for many wearisome months,
There is no tangible, applicable answer that my soul can conceivably find.
There are so many people continually in my presence,
Who can't seem to see my problem except as a trifling abnormality.
I only wish they could see down deep in my troubled heart.
I wish they could see what is hidden inside,
Continually wounding and hurting me.
My emotions have been torn,
My heart has been broken.
It seems no matter where I go or what I do,
I'm always hurting and not another soul is aware.
There's an eternal hollowness behind my eyes that won't go away.
My throat is hoarse, and my brain confused;
There's a persisting disorder to my hair.
At the end of a long dark tunnel,
I see a dim light flickering.
Sometimes, it fades entirely,
Sometimes, it brightens intensely, filling me with hope.
In the darkness, I'm continually falling to the rocky ground, losing my way.
I'm not sure what choice to make, which path to take -- maybe I'll never know.
I keep expecting the horrid pressure to decrease, the hurting to cease,
But it never does, and I keep trudging,
Continually hounded by my environment.
The cold specter of insanity encircles me on every side,
Offering release from the hurt and pain of this cruel world I'm living in.
Please, God, if you are really there, save me from this mess.
Sometimes, I feel your presence,
And sometimes, I just can't perceive your presence.
Please, give me a sign or speak to me in some way,
Give me someone to understand.
Just let me know you're out there,
Or I might cease to be a man.
That was our piece. That was what we worked on for like... roughly a week. It never crossed our minds that we would win. With only 2 days to do everything? We don't stand a
chance. Our toughest competition has been practicing for like... a month! But, miracles DO happen, and that's just what we experienced today. A
miracle.
Yup, you've probably guessed it by now.
We WON. IV-RIZAL was proclaimed
CHAMPIONS for the Dramatized Choric Presentation. Would you believe?!?! I mean, with all the pressure and rushed-ness of it all. God is good! :) I guess we really deserved this. After all the put-downs we've been receiving since Cheering and stuff. I'm so fricken happy!
So anyway, I'll tell the story. Haha.
I got to school at around 7:30 cause the program will start at 8. Knowing Mrs. Jabal, it would
really start at 8. When I got there, they were already practicing. Some of them already had their costumes on and I admit, we looked like we're gonna go to sleep. Duh, we're wearing PJs! Haha. But anyway, after about 20 minutes, Mrs. Jabal already called me up to go near the stage cause the program will start any minute.
After I've said my Welcome Remarks, Mrs. Bernardo, our OIC, kinda reprimanded me cause I was wearing a shirt and jeans. LOL. She said I should've worn something more presentable, like a dress or something. So I just told her I was a part of the Choric Presentation and stuff. So yeah. I changed into our costume and waited till the declamation was over.
The Choric Presentation started with I-Sampaguita. We're supposed to go next, so we proceeded to our assigned places. I was assigned in front of the wired gate thingy. We hid so no one from inside would see us and stuff. I was actually nervous cause I don't know when to start and crap. Haha. But yeah, Maricar counted us off. Haha. We were supposed to act like we're out of our minds and stuff. GAHD. When the other people appeared in the grounds already, we ran inside and we pushed through the audience talaga. Haha. Fidel even got trampled by most of us. LOL. Dexter even kicked him. How sad. Nyahahaha.
So yeah. We just did our best. I swear, our voices were louder than ever and we were all serious and stuff. No one laughed, no one forgot their lines, the choreography, EVERYTHING! At that point, we had a strong feeling that we CAN win.
After us were IV-Bonifacio. Their entrance was good. They had such great effects. I loved theirs tho, furreal. And let's admit, III-Makiling's was REAL good. But it was just too long. And the last part was kinda rocky. They had better voices than us tho.
After all the presentations were done, we were just sitting there in one corner, oblivious of what the results will be. We were so nervous, but we still weren't expecting anything. I even said
"Okay lang kung wala tayong makuha, basta nakapag-present tayo ng maayos." But when the head judge started announcing the winners,
lumakas yung loob ko. In third place, she said something like
"The third place goes to the ones wearing black!" eh Makiling was wearing black, so we're like...
"DI NGA?!" but yeah, we figured it
can't be them. It was I-Sampaguita. So for Second Place, we were already at the edge of our seats with our fingers crossed. At the back of my mind I was thinking
"What if we didn't get any place?" Our hearts almost jumped out of our ribcage when she announced that III-Makiling bagged it. But we just
HAD to make sure, and we literally jumped to the center of the grounds when she announced that IV-RIZAL, contestant #2, bagged the FIRST PLACE. WHOAAAA. We didn't really EXPECT that.
We were so freaking HAPPY. And nothing could wipe the smiles off our faces. We were literally jumping and hugging each other on the way to our classroom. We all hugged Mrs. Jadaone. Hahaha. She was so happy! The judges even asked for a copy of our piece. Gaaahhhd. We immediately texted Kuya Jeff to tell him the good news. Even though he probably still lacks sleep, he texted us Congratulations. Haha. Kuya Jeff! I don't even know what we would've done if we didn't get to convince you to teach us! JEEEEZZ.
before presenting.
lol. we put concealer on our lips to look sick.
woooooot. sulong seniors!
lahvet. ♥
makiling.
LEE! anne's uber cute brother. rawrrr.
haha. spot me with iv-rizal's certificate.
CHAMPIONS!
the trophy.
ahem.
dexter and i. with glenn.There. Haha. Fieldtrip tomorrow. So excited! :)
