Woke up early. Nyahaha... it's so weird how I wake up early on non-school days and wake up late on school days. Tsk. Bad. Soo yes. It's so gay how people don't go treat or tricking here =(. Getting lots and lots of candy is so much fun. And people don't even decorate their house with crap. Tss... corny people.

So anyway, Pao and I went to Robinson's to chill since he's going to Cavite tomorrow. Tsss... fucker. Anyway... we got to Robinson's at like... 2:10 or something and My Sassy Girl's show time was 1:40 so we said we'll just watch the next one. But then the next show time is at 4:00 so we just walked around and crap. Oh yeahh... I saw Mark Gochingco near the fountain area thingy beside the monkey ice cream dispenser on the main floor. So I quickly dragged Paolo up the escalator so he wouldn't see me. And I'm pretty sure he's with some girl cause he was talking to her. OMG... the sad thing is I don't even know if it was Akreng... cause the girl was kinda tall and had short hair and her back didn't look like Akreng at all. I texted Jaz and she said maybe it's some other girl he's going out with and shit... OMG what a jerk! Nyahaha and Jaz also told me to look at her ass and if it's big, then it's Akreng. Nyahaha... DOOD. I was thinking it was Maricar but she's in Pangasinan... or maybe it's his mom or cousing or something... cause they were just talking... and they weren't holding hands or anything... then we went around and I saw the girl... now alone... so I thought Mark was just hitting on her or something. But dood... still. Oh well. It's not my life. I don't want to care about other people's issues anymore.

Since it was getting stuffy in Robinson's, we went to Sta. Lucia. There were lots more people there than in Rob man. But whatever. Haha... he bought us Zagu man. And he's like... "Okay my Zagu princess, finish in 5 minutes?". Then I said "OMG are you crazy? Mauubos mo ba isang grande in 5 minutes?" Nyahaha... but we tried anyway... and got major brainfreeze after. Nyahaha. Oh well, I finished more than he did in 5 mins so I'm still the reigning Zagu Princess in our world! *insert evil laughter here*. Ooookie. We walked around some more and went to McD's cause apparently, he hadn't eaten lunch. Yuummeeyyy. Twister fries+gravy is the BOMB. Gahd McD's is getting so corrupt now eh? Charging 3 pesos for gravy? TSK. Anyway, we sat near the glass window thing where Ronald McDonald sits... and you know how alot of people take pictures with him right? Nyahaha... everytime people take pics we pose as well. Nyahaha. Laughtrip. It's so funny. And the guy sitting on the table behind Pao is so cute. Nyahaha. But I think he's still young. Dah well.

Worlds of Fun was gayy man. It's for kids now. The only thing we can ride is the bump cars. Then we played that spider hitting thing... nyahaha. OMG there's this group of girls who was fully hitting on Pao man. We were just sitting on the benches then they passed by then stopped on front of us. They were like "Uyyy tingnan mo yun oh... yung nakawhite... ang pogi! (Uy, look at him... the guy in white... he's so cute!)" *insert annoying giggles here*. GAHD. They were even daring each other to get his number and crap so I stood up and then Paolo held my hand and we went. So then I hear them walking behind us and saying in LOUD whispers "OMG... sayang may girlfriend na... (OMG too bad he's got a girlfriend)" then another voice says "Hala... baka kapatid lang niya yun... o kaya pinsan... (Maybe she's just his
sister or cousin)" first voice replies "Ano ka ba? Girlfriend niya yun nagholding hands sila eh. (Are you stupid? They were holding hands)" then I looked at Pao with this pissed off look then he put his arm around me. Then the second voice says "Ay... girlfriend nga... (Yeah... she's his girlfriend.)" then they finally leave. SHIT. Those kinds of girls piss me off. And add to the fact that they kept on saying the word "girlfriend" over and over again. Gahd. I'm not even used to be called that cause for me, Pao's just a... special friend. He's not my boyfriend boyfriend... like... you know... M.U. or something. We're not really official... like... GAHD. ANNOYING.

So we decided to go to Robinson's already. Good thing there wasn't a line at all so yeah. Haha... they were giving free samples of GARD shampoo for the people who enters the cinema. Nyahaha... Pao was like "Isn't this for dogs?" LOOOL. He's so gay. Anyway, there were only a few people in there. Mostly couples and girlfriends and crap. It's so weird. Through the whole movie, nobody else sat on our row. And we were sitting on the seats in the middle. Nyahaha... it's like we had virus or something. Anyway the movie was kinda weird in Tagalog. Like tha translations we're kinda... err... not actually what's said in the movie. It was mostly funny though! Nyahaha... Gyun-Woo's name is Yohan (sp.). Then when the butt-exposure part came, Paolo covered my eyes. Haha... cute. But then I said I saw that too many times before so even if he covers my eyes I picture it in my head. Nyahaha. In fairness I understood the movie more now cause I actually focused on the movie itself. Cause in watching the Korean version, you actually focus on the captions. Nyahaha... and I think it would've been more touching if it was in English. Nyahaha... I asked Pao when he's gonna give me a rose in the middle of my class then he said if we'd last one year. Yeah, right. Nyahaha... just kidding. Oh well... I didn't cry this time =). Nyahaha.

01. wag mong hingin sa kanyang maging mahinhin
02. wag mo siyang hahayaang uminom ng marami, mga 3 baso lang, baka may upakan siya eh
03. sa isang coffee shop wag kang oorder ng ice tea o juice, mg coffee ka.
04. pag sinapak ka niya, umarte ka na parang nasaktan. pagka nasaktan ka, umarte ka na parang hindi.
05. sa 100th day na anniversary ninyo, dalhan mo siya ng isang rose habang nasa klase siya... magugustuhan niya yun
06. siguraduhin mo na matuto kang...
07. dapat handa ka ring makulong minsan.
08. pag sinabi niyang patay ka sakin, wag mong babalewalain, mabuti yun para sayo
09. pag masakit ang mga paa niya, makipagpalit ka ng sapatos sa kanya.
10. writer siya, hayaan mo siyang magsulat... sana suportahan mo siya.

Woot woot. I memorized it. Nahh just kidding. I recorded it on my phone. I couldn't really understand rule 6 so yeah. Nyahaha... after the movie, he dropped me off at my house... then when I came in, he texted me. He said "Siguro by now you understand why I like you. I wanted to cure your pain... I wanted to be the one who will take away the pain in your heart... but now ikaw yung di ko maalis sa puso ko... just like Gyun-Woo said." COORRNNYYY. But sweet at the same time. Nyahaha. JEEZ.

entry over at eljay. too lazy to post here. nyahaha. =)

I guess Aiko's blaming me too.

This shit is bothering me. When I woke up, I got a text from Jeremy asking if Aiko would ever forgive him. I didn't reply to his text because as I said to myself last night, I won't do anything to bring them back together. As much as I want to, I can't. I don't wanna be blamed again. I kept on thinking... I made a way to start their relationship and I guess I made a way to end it without knowing it.

I got to school feeling all crappy. Add the fact that it was raining. Nathan and Jorge was there bugging me and stuff. When I entered the classroom, Mrs. Austria was already giving them the test papers. I didn't even look at Jeremy. I just can't. After the test, I went out of the classroom right away. I saw Maricar talking to Aiko. I'm pretty sure she was making herself involved in this again man. Gusto niya lagi siyang kasali. Gusto niya siya yung gagawa ng paraan para magkabati lahat. GAHD get over yourself man! No one buys your good girl antics anymore cause we all know what you are! SHIT.

So then after their "talk", we rushed off to Jolibee to talk. Aiko said that apparently, Maricar didn't know that they've broken up. Apparently, Maricar wants Jeremy and Aiko to talk about this. DUDE. She's so fucking gay man. Shut the fuck up. She doesn't know they've broken up? Give me a damn break. For all we know she's the one who pushed Jeremy to text Aiko that shit. Gahd, Jeremy wouldn't be that damn shallow man! Honestly, I felt like crying. Then Maricar said that Jeremy's mad at me right now? HOLY CRAP. How can he be mad when he's the one saying sorry? Shit man. What a fucking liar. Para siyang consensya eh no? Bulong ng bulong kay Jeremy kung anong dapat gawin. But we don't know wether she's the angel or the devil. Most probably... the last one.

After eating we decided to go to Aiko's to watch a movie. But the DVD player wasn't connected to the TV and we didn't know how to connect it so we just brought the DVD to Bevs'. On the way there Aiko told me: "Ewan ko nga kung sino yung may kasalanan talaga eh... kung ikaw, ako, o si Jeremy. Hindi ko alam kung sino yung naiipit sa ating tatlo...". Although she said it like she didn't have hard feelings for me, I know she does. I know that she wants to be mad at me, even for a second. I know that a part of her is also blaming me for the break-up. I wanted to hit myself for not thinking before I spoke. I feel so crappy. I know it's my fault.

We watched My Sassy Girl for the Nth time. We were kinda frustrated cause we can't watch the tagalized version since we're all broke. Nyahaha. While watching I texted Jeremy... I said: "Je... sorry sa mga ginawa ko... akala ko kasi kilala mo ko... di pala... akala ko alam mo ugali ko... hindi ko alam nasasaktan ka na pala sa mga sinasabi ko... hayaan mo... wag kang magalala... hindi na ko makikielam sa inyo... hindi na ko magsasalita para kay aiko... sorry talaga...". Then he replied: "Sorry din sa mga ginawa ko... wala na rin... iniwan na ko ni Aiko, siguro di na niya ako mahal... pakisabi na lang sa kanya mahal na mahal ko talaga siya... ayokong mawala siya... sorry din dahil naging makasarili ako...". I wanted to tell him that he's wrong. I wanted to tell him to not worry, cause I'll do something about it. I wanted it to be like before... I'll do something to make them okay. But I stopped myself.

I don't want to play match maker anymore.

I wonder who could know me like Gyun-woo knew her?

1. Don't ask her to be feminine.
2. Don't let her drink over three glasses. She'll beat someone.
3. At a cafe, don't drink coke or juice, drink coffee.
4. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't.
5. On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class. She'll like it lot.
6. Make sure you learn fencing and squash.
7. Also be prepared to go to prison sometimes.
8. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly. You'll feel better.
9. If her feet hurt, exchange shoes with her.
10. She likes to write, encourage her.

Sige nga mga boylets ko... gawan niyo ko ng 10 things you should know about me. NYAHAHAHA. Kafal.

I don't understand this. It's too fricken fast.

All I know was we were sitting in SM's foodcourt, then Aiko and Jeremy broke up. And I don't want to think that I'm the reason for it. I still don't get it. I don't know what happened. Something that we worked hard to build was broken in just a minute. Just like that.

I woke up cause Kath called. She told me about... this thing. Then Maricar texted me asking about what changed. How did she change? So I told her. I even said I'm still her friend and all this drama. So I was like... okay that felt good. Then I got to school. Ang ganda nga ng araw ko cause... ano... basta ;). Then we had Social. That was okay. I think i did fine. Then Geometry. Test three was fricken screwed mann. I didn't know what to do. So I asked Jeremy. Nang-aasar pa ampota! He told me to ask someone else. So I was like "putang ina mo gago sige ganyan ka..." then I kept on saying that to him. So then when he said he'd finally tell him I just ignored him cause I already got pissed. So yeah, I'm pretty sure I failed in that. Same with TLE man. That sucked ass. Furreal. I didn't know one fucking thing.

So when we were dismissed, I saw Jeremy in the halls then I said "Putang ina mo ganyan ka... madamot!". He was just smirking so I ignored it. Then we stayed in the other classroom for a bit to check the Chem test papers. So after that we went to Ansons and they were there. So I was like "Putang ina mo Jeremy ha bakit ka anjan diba sabi mo wala kang pera? Gago ka tang ina mo ganyan ka talaga kala mo jan. Akala ko ba uuwi ka ng maaga ha? Tang ina mo sinungaling ka talaga." That's how I fucking talk if I'm pissed. So he was just ignoring me. Maricar and Guinina came. Then when they finished playing, Jeremy came up to Aiko to say he's going home. So I said "Talaga tang ina mo umuwi ka na wala kang kwenta. Jeremy ganyan ka nako..." then Maricar looked at me. I just ignored it cause I didn't think he would take it so damn seriously. I thought he knew me.

When we were about to go to the LRT station, we saw them outside. Aiko gave Jeremy a cut eye and I think Maricar saw. Nyahaha. Naughty. So we didn't care. We went to Sta. Mesa. While we were in the LRT I texted Jeremy cause we were really getting pissed since they looked like they were going somewhere. So I said "Tang ina mo Jeremy wala ka talagang kwenta akala mo jan... pag sa computer may pera ka pagdating kay Aiko wala? Tama ba yun sige nga?" after a while, no reply. Then when we got there, we walked around for a bit, then decided to eat. We went to the foodcourt. While deciding where to eat, Aiko got a text from "Jeremy" (we think it's not really him.) saying something about me. How Aiko should tell me to stop cursing at him and shit. It's something worse. Like... the words hurt. Gahd. The next thing I know we were arguing by text.

He's blaming me. I'm so mad at myself. Why did I not keep in mind that Jeremy's so fricken sensitive? But still, I thought he knew me well. I thought he knows when I'm pissed. I thought wrong. I guess he doesn't. But then again... we don't think it was him who texted first. Because I know Jeremy wouldn't do that. I know him pretty damn well. We all know someone told him to do that. And we damn well know who that someone is too.

Fuck, ang kapal ng mukha niya! Bakit niya ko inaaway? Holy shit. Napupuno na ko sa kanya! Ano siya nangaasar? Tang ina niya... hayup siya... gago pala siya eh... ako pa kinalaban niya? Hindi talaga magagawa ni Jeremy yun eh. Alam naman namin na sinulsulan lang niya si Jere. Dahil gusto niyang masaktan si Aiko. Gusto niyang ipadama kay Aiko yung nararamdaman niya. Matagal nang sinasabi samin ni Aiko yun eh. Tang ina, akala mo anghel yung pokpok na yun? Shet. Fuck. Gusto ko siyang kalbuhin. Tang inang pangat yan. HAYUP. Tang ina di ko alam kung ano magagawa ko pag nakita ko siya bukas. Humanda siya. PUTANG INA NIYA.

Nyahaha... I'm so fricken paranoid right now.

Today was the first day of our semestral exams. I think I did okay... except for fricken Trigonometry man. Whoever invented that should've died a painful death. Nyahaha. Nakakainis lang. I can't understand anything. *smiles*.

After the exams, we went to McDonalds to eat. Nyahaha. It was kinda awkward cause on the way there, we saw Guinina, Maricar and Maxinn in Anson. Damn. Inaagaw nila tambayan namin. Huhuhu... joke lang. Laugh trip sa McDo mann. Twister fries. Mmmm. And we saw Ice's look-a-like. Haha... we were making fun of Camille cause she was like... third wheel to Abby and Donor cause they were having a date. Nyahaha... Donor looks like Doods Peralejo furreal. May hawig lang. Lol... don-don-don-nor... hehehehe.

After McDo, tumambay kami sa St. Joseph to decide where we're gonna go next. Nyahaha... tang ina, poor. Hindi na lang sa McDo nagdecide eh no? Nyahaha. So while we were there, we saw Mark's name on their bulletin board thingy. Nyahaha... Mark Anthony G. Manabat. Wahaha... we never knew he was smart. He's got an Academic Award and that other shit. He doesn't look the smart type anyway. Woot. Go Bevs! Siya na talaga hinahanap mo! ;) Tapos nun we went to Aiko's. Nyahaha... we were trying to find something to watch. So we watched a bit of Popeye on Cartoon Network then Hey Arnold on Nick. Woot. Naaalala ko ang mga gabi hapon... nyahaha... cause back in Canada, pag-uwi ko, that's what I watch. HUHUHU. BRING ME BACK. Nyahaha... salawahan!

So then we watched MYX. Wahehe... the video that was playing was Justin Timberlake's Like I Love You. DAMN. We were reminiscing like... nyahaha... we usedta have a HUGE crush on him and stuff. And now we don't even hear anything from him anymore. Tsk, yan ang hirap ng nakatira far away from North America man. You won't get to keep up with the latest hip-hop/RnB/rap shit. Nyahaha... I don't even know if he even released a new album yet. I still love his music.

Eyon... we decided to watch a movie. They said they wanted to watch something scary so they asked me to pick a DVD. I picked Inner Senses. Shit, it gives me goosebumps just thinking about it. It was THAT scary. I swear. Chinese people are so wicked in making horror/love story mann. That movie's so fricken SCARY mann furreal. The face of the girl is still in my head. And like... I swear... I feel like she's behind me or something. GAHHHDD. aldfj'aldfjka;lwerjoisnvlka. I'm scared now. Nyahaha. But yeah. If you haven't watched that, you should. It's wicked. Especially the ending part. It was kinda sweet too. But the part where the ghost (more like zombie) of the girl kisses the guy... is just NASTY. Just imagine someone that's been buried for a long time come and kiss you. Nyahaha. Shet the hairs on my arm are standing up. FFFFUUUCCCKKKK.

So yeah, I'm home now. I got 58/80 on the damn Chemistry test. WOOOTT. I'm proud =). I wonder what I'm gonna get in MAPEH. WOOOT. Delot's such an angel mann. Nyahaha... he gave me like... 10 answers. I probably aced that though. It was too easy (then watch me get a failing mark. nayahhahaha kakahiya...). I'm just worried about Trigo mann. SHIT.

Exam tomorrow: Social, TLE, Geometry. Fuck. I'm gonna fail TLE for sure (unless Jeremy's gonna be nice and give me answers. nyahahaha)... I'm reviewing for Social now... and Geometry... I'm gonna be fine =).

GAH. I should've went to school today. Tsk, so fricken gay. I missed so much stuff. I always pick the days to skip school where we have so much important shit to do mann. Pissing me off. Nyahaha... dah well. It's my fault anyway. I shouldn'tve skipped. But Lola left today and I wanted to see her leave...

In English, I didn't get to graph my SRA, and didn't get to pass my Investigatory Project. Then in TLE, Mrs. Salvador already gave me a chance to take my long test, yet I wasted it. NYAHH. Who cares. There's still the 3rd quarter coming up... and I'm gonna prove something. Nyahahaha. I wish. I'm so lazy mann. Snap out of it Mary!!!

Anyway... I need to publish 6 entries to push the pics down. Nyahaha... it's taking up so much space on the page. Hmm... what else should I say? Ehm... Wednesday tomorrow! Exams na!!! SHET. I hope I pass mann. Pray for me!!! Then after the exam... praise and worship practice in church! WOOOT. I'm gonna see my bear! =)

haha... kath's asking me to make her a blog. yeahhhh fine. I should. Later boiii.

Can you hear me talking
Can you see me there
Am I getting anything from you
Can you hear my whispers
Can you see me there
Coz I'd be lost -- I'd be lost without you

Forever envelopes my days
Gasping for air as I look for an escape
I'm drowning in a letter made to stay
I took one look away
This song's about you
Cause I still do

I get the chance to talk to my friends again and my computer crashes. DAMN SHIT. Right now I'm in a net cafe. I don't even like going to these places cause it reeks mann. Like... it's so noisy, hot, and the people are fricken NOSY. SHET. They like looking at what you're doing. Ahem. Anyway... I didn't go to school cause I wanted to study. Nyahaha... as if I will anyway. Exams tomorrow. I'm pretty worried. I think I'm gonna fail or something. I hope Makiling will only be in one room like before. Nyahaha... so I can get answers off of people. But yeah. I wanna go somewhere else. I'm getting bored here.

LOL. Cute quote Paolo sent me.

Pag mahal mo ang isang tao,
itataya mo ang buhay mo...
ibibigay ang lahat ng gusto.
Pero pano kung...
nagtext siya at GLOBE ang gamit niya?
Itataya at ibibigay mo ba ang pisong
bumubuhay sa unlimited mo? Ü

NYAHAHA. That was funny. So I replied... "if ever you text me using globe, I won't even think twice to reply... see? that's how i llluuurrvveee yew =)."

Gahd. I'm bored here. And I feel stuffy. Jeez. I'm out.

and you said, this is going nowhere
and you said, i turned my back on you
and you said, im not the only one for you...

haha... boy band songs rocks my socks mann... they're still the bomb furreal... nyahha im kidding... im not going to school tomorrow cause i dont feel like it... and im supposed to "review" for the coming exams... yah right. lola's leaving for the province tomorrow too... damn... nobody's gonna be home mann... wicckeddddd! =)

Putang ina naman talaga tong araw na to oh. holy crap... I got to school early... haha... but late for the awarding. Sucks. Then first thing I hear... someone was saying "Toby pa-kiss!". Hmm... EPAL. Putcha sino nagpauso nun? Diba kami ni Bevs? I just don't like it when someone I don't even consider CLOSE to me copy our stuff. Shet... I was so irritated by her voice and I just couldn’t tell it to someone. Haha...

TLE. I was so hungry by then mann. Then I was kinda getting irritated too cause the identifier used on the program was SAM. That stupid hag. And Mrs. Salvador loves me mann. Haha... she's making me take the long test tomorrow. But I don't even wanna go to school so screw that. Then in Trigo, the test was kinda hard cause I couldn't remember the formulas and ish. So I THINK I kinda failed. Nyahahaha... dah well. That same someone I was talking about up there kept on talking about A Walk To Remember again today. Parang pinapalabas niya na siya lang yung nakakaalam nun? HELLO. That's like... my favourite movie of all time and you tell me this shit? I just wanted to make her shut up. GAHD. That movie's fucking OLD girl. She's like... "Yeah, I watch it everyday, I know all their lines, oh, for english, I copied this off the book, I'm gonna tell it to the class... blah blah blah” SHUT THE FUCK UP. Then she kept on telling everyone to check her friendster. Just to show them Shane West’s pic on one of the scenes there. GAHD. Get over yourself. You're like... WAY behind.

Haha... they're making the officers collect 25 cents from anyone who speaks tagalog in school. Apparently, they're on this campaign where everyone has to speak english. ERR... YEAH. Haha they're so gay. They're trying to make Roosevelt's standards go higher by doing all this shit. It's not even working. Jeez. Oh well... it's funny though. I couldn't stop laughing. They sound so fob-ish. Okay... I'm not bragging. It's just... funny. XPP.

Jes: Ow, ow, ow, ow... you're hurting my butt!
Camille: Why are you barking? Aw, aw, aw!

NYAHAHHAHAHA. That was so funny. It was a moment thing. Nyahahahahha. Camille comes up with the funniest come-backs. Hahah... so anyway... the five of us decided to do that thing we did during the DMAKKS time. LOL. HAHA they copied us. LOL. Anyway, we're gonna buy a notebook and only the 5 of us are gonna write innit. We have diff. code names and ish. Hehe... I miss DMAKKS. Tsss... it's over.

We were talking to a different someone today. About her issues. Dude, this is what I'm telling you. If you're hurting, then why the fuck do you go near him? Bakit hindi ka umiiwas? If you will always try to see him, you won't get over him. You're so stupid. Furreal. And I can't understand why you have to bring back the past? Like... it's OVER. They don't like you anymore. GAHD. It's like you're just using them as panakip butas. Specially James. You're gay mann. Shut the fuck up. They're all right. You're just a fuckin hoe inside. Jeez.

But why am I scared? I’m scared... because I noticed James has been coming near her a lot now. And you know what pissed me off too today? She fucking went to Anson to wait for them. Why doesn’t she go home with _____ anymore? GAHD. Shit. Ang landi mo.

Thanksgiving Sunday today =).

It's cool... as I said last night the line-up of songs were wickkeed. I love them. Nyahaha... Nadine's sooo cute. Favourite kid ever. Haha... though sometimes she's fricken hurting me mann. But she loved me today. HAAA. Okay I unno what I'm talking about.

So anyway... the elders prepared some food for the "party". They're good. But I didn't like the spaghetti much. Nyahaha... no offence to the person who cooked that. So we just chilled in the music room. Play the guitar and ish. Someone saw me playing the guitar. *wink wink*. HAAA. And I poked him on the side a while ago too when I was getting water. Ew I'm so stupid.

Putchang inang mga... buwiset nakakainis. FUCK YOU. Imagine, she even called Pao on his cell to ask where he is? And she fucking asked if she could go?!?!??! WHO DOES THAT.

Awarding tomorrow. I wonder who's over-all champions? Hmm... gayness. I'm pretty sure it's the seniors. So yeah. I hafta go to school early. Fuckkk... Mrs. Jadaone said she'll train me for declamation. I don't even know what that is. Nyahaha... bahala na. EXAM, then SEM BREAK. SHEETTT I've been waiting for you! Nyahaha... Sassy Girl on the 28th. Best make sure we're going. GAHD.

Pizza! =)

Pao, Mark and his girlfriends (there's two. nyahaha XP) just left. Damn I'm scared to bits. No one's home. They're all at the fricken airport cause they dropped off Lola Osie cause she's going to US. So... they're probably gonna be home like at 2 or something. GOSH.

After the practice (cool line up! *thumbs up*), I told Pao and Mark to come over my house since no one's home right? So then we ordered pizza. While waiting for our food we were watching Wag Kukurap and right now I'm fricken imagining the scary old lady sitting beside me or standing there or something. Nyahaha... I'm so bothered by her face mann. Naagnas na kasi. Nyahaha... freaky furreal. And while we were watching it Mark was turning off the lights because he said it's "sweet". Yeah right. Anyway... the pizza came while we were watching Pinoy Pop. Nyahaha... Mark was flirting with both his girls at the same time mann. Sucha pimp. Hahaha... so after that we watched WWE Raw Homecoming. Haha... I can't believe Pao didn't know I watch WWE. I love that. Natutuwa ako sa ganun eh!. Wala lang... I'm so fricken pissed at Eric Bischoff mann. Such an ass. Buti nga natalo ka! LOL! Even asking Kurt Angle to come with you? Nah boy. The end was wicked too though! RAW stars vs. SMACKDOWN stars. DOOD. Nyahaha... I LOVE REY MYSTERIO. Pao said Eddie Guerrero's better than him. For your information Mr. I'm-Your-Papi... Rey Mysterio can beat Eddie Guerrero anytime so SHADDAP. XDDD

Today he finally accomplished 15 of the 30 things on the list. 3 today. He held my hand and we ran to my house. Then while we were watching tv, he's like... "it's night, right?" then I'm like... "yeah, so?" he went outside and threw pebbles at my window. Nyahaha... smart kid. Then he let me "sleep" on his arms. NYAHAHAHA. He's so fricken GAY. Kala mo huh? I'm not counting the last thing he did cause he always does that anyway. woot.

GAHD FINALLY! They're home! OOOHHH. Pasalubong. Tartar! =D

Ang bait talaga ni Lord oh... imagine, na-cancel yung practice on the last minute?! Wahaha... PURRFECT.

So yeah, I went to school. I was thinking the whole day... "bakit ako nandito?" HAHAHA. Putek... if I didn't go to school, I would've missed a practicum turned quiz, the project in english, and a quiz in geometry. YEHESSS. Woot woot... good student talking here. WAKEKE. Unbelievable Mary. APPPIIRRR.

Nyahaha... I'm so high. Pramis. Haha... Guinina was talking so much about A Walk to Remember today... so I was like... damn I missed watching that. Cause I used to watch it every single day before right? So yeah... haha... wala na kami pera so we decided to come home early. Putcha. Hirap magin poor. Thung nang kasing paluwagan yan oh. For the sake of having money. Nyahaha. So eon... when I got home Pao called me up. He said he'd pick me up at Robinson's then we'll go to his house. Gusto ko sana manood ng Sassy Girl, but I said I'd rather catch it with my friends. Hehe... yun, I brought my DVD of AWTR... then we popped it in and chilled. With barbeque tortillos on the side. Nyahaha... wala lang. I really miss that movie. I used to remember all their fricken lines and ish... but I don't anymore. HAY. Whatever.

Tae talagang Samantha yan oh... text ng text kay Pao. Hindi ka na nga nirereplyan, itatanong mo pa "bkt d u na rply? txtbk nman! im so bord eh." HAH. Desperado man. Halata.

Marami pa pala akong pix na di napo-post dito? Nyahaha... tae mga tao sa school! Mamatay kayo sa inggit man. Don’t be so insecure. Alam namin maganda kami. .|. NYAHAHA. Peashhh.

you need someone
willing to give her heart and soul to you
promise you forever
baby that's something I can't do

oh I could say that I'll be all you need
but that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you need
I love you, goodbye.

That song's been running through my head since yesterday. It's just so well said. I love you, goodbye. DIBA? Props to the person who composed that song. Para sayo yan james.

I was so dazed today. I feel so nostalgic to be exact. I don't even know why. I feel like I'm living in the past yet I'm here in the future. You know what I mean? Like my head's been so empty. I've been like that the whole day. Parang I'm floating in mid-air. Yung feeling na wherever my feet takes me? Ganon na ganon feeling ko today. It's so weird pramis. Tapos I'm thinking about so much stuff lately pa. School, church, lablyf... hay... a teenage girl's life is so complicated.

School... nakakainis kasi right when you PLAN to skip school the next day, that's when teachers give you SO much work for the next day. We have the banner thing in MAPEH, tapos the experiments in Chemistry, yung group work sa English, and I'm pretty sure workbook kami bukas for Geometry. Eh pano yan, I want to go to practice so I could sing for Thanksgiving Sunday. Pero if I skip school, I'd miss so much activities. If I skip practice, I won't get to sing. Eh dun nga lang ako nag e-enjoy... hindi pa ko a-attend? Pero what about school? I don't wanna go to school tomorrow kasi nga yung banner... eh ako pa naman leader dun sa bwiset na yun. Tapos... Mrs. Flores keeps on nagging me about our group's report. It's not my fault I don't have group members that co-operates with me. Ayaw nga nila magbigay ng acetate eh! Shit. I told her pa naman na I'm doing it on powerpoint... eh I have no idea how to do that. And plus, do I actually have time to do that shit now? Shet. Bahala na si batman.

Tapos I'm thinking about that stupid bitch pa. Eh 19 nga bukas diba? So I thought, "sige, after school I'll go to Robinsons to walk around to think about things..." ah shaddap. Ganun ang therapy ko if I want some place nice to meditate. HAHA. So eon, after chilling in Anson's (ahaha who does that) I went to Robinson's, bought ice cream (in strawberry&dark cookies and cream – our fave), then decided to check on my oh-so-lovely digi cam sitting on the windows of picture city. On my way down the escalator, guess who I see sitting on our usual spot? Yes. Him. Putchang inang yan... akala ko pa naman I'd have peace. haha... I was about to run back up the escalator pero I couldn't resist. He always looks good in mall lights. Haha... ewan ko kung produkto lang yun ng malabo kong mata or he really does look good. So I crept behind his back and covered his eyes with my free hand. Siyempre, he already knows. Amoy pa lang. HAHAHA. He actually looked surprised... then he smiled and I gave him a peck on the cheek. So I asked him what he was doing there. He said he decided to come home early for tomorrow's practice. Kakatuwa... he made me remember about my problem. Sobrang nae-enjoy ko na yung ice cream oh... hahaha. Tapos he asked me if I was going... I said hindi ko alam... I asked him who he was waiting for... then sabi niya yung classmate niya nagpapadevelop ng pics... HELLO... classmate? Ang layo kaya ng school niya. Bakit dito pa magpapadevelop? Then I saw someone coming near us. SHEET. Sabi na nga ba... yung malanding HAYUP na yun. TAE talaga. I felt my blood boiling mann. Nainis pa ko nung sinabi niya in her fucking uber perky voice "Pahw, wahn awehr pa daw yhung picsh eh... I guesh you're shtuck wid me fuhr an awehr!" taeh moh gahgoh! SHET. Bakit ganun siya magsalita? She's so clingy pa. As in... nakapulupot na yung arm niya sa arm ni Pao, and she was fully ignoring me. Pao was looking so damn uncomfortable. So sabi niya "It's okay... Sam, napakilala ko na sayo girlfriend ko diba... si Mary?" SHET. Take note, he said girlfriend. She quickly let go of his arm and looked at me without a smile. Tapos she said "ah, yah." GAHD. May tone siya nung sinabi niya yun... shet mann. Kung hindi lang sin pumatay nakapatay na ko ngayun eh. I wanted to put my ice cream on her dry hair man. Pao was feeling the tension so he said he'd take us to frio.

At frio... grabe huh. She fricken led the way. As in... she was dragging Pao. I was like the`hell? We sat near the wall and siyempre... sa tabi ko umupo si Pao. Lam mo ba naman ginawa? She put her chair on the side of the table. You know what I mean? So it was like this.

me---pao
--table-- bitch
chair-----

GAHD. Tae who does that. She's fricken showing Paolo that she's fricken desperate man. I got so pissed. My ice cream melted. Haha... I didn't even get to finish half of it cause I didn't feel like it anymore. HAY. Tapos siya pa yung umorder para kay Pao? SHEEEEET. Tadtarin ko siya eh. Tapos while we were eating, she keeps on cracking corny jokes and she laughs out loud like it's the funniest thing she heard in her whole entire life. Then she goes "Anoh bah Pahw. Lahff!" SHET.

After eating, we decided to walk around some more. I just made myself think that it was only Pao and I... walang asungot na kasama. So hinawakan ni Pao yung kamay ko and squeezed it... I'm pretty sure nahahalata niya na naiinis na ko... so he told me to ignore her. Then dumaan kami ng Astro Vision. He pulled Paolo to go inside saying "PAHW, I wahnt to buhy some DVDs, dihba they alreahdy have iht?" so parang naging lose yung grip ni Pao sa hand ko kasi nga hinila siya diba, pero I held on. He looked at me and I shook my head. Eto na... yung test na hinihingi ko. I said to myself... if he went inside, it means tama yung sinasabi sakin ng mga informants ko (hayup, informants. WAHAHA)... if he doesn't, I won't believe anything my informants tell me. I was fully holding my breath. Then he finally told her "Ikaw na lang Sam... samahan ko muna si Mar sa CR...". WAGI. WAHHAHAAHA. Take that Fernandes. Patay na patay ka sa Paolo ko, wala naman siya pakielam sayo. HAH.

After that she wasn't clinging onto him anymore. Dapat lang. Shet, lakas ng loob mo bruha ka. Sa harap ko pa. Then Pao just made him ride the first jeepney going to Cubao then he walked me home. Saya diba. Bukas, 19 na... haha... di ko na maalala... Sana... I'd get to decide wether I’d be going to school or not. Please help me do the right thing.

What's up doods?

Haha... I haven't been updating this crap eh? Hmm... nothing's happening anyway. Usual issues... ahem... nothing else.

OH YEAH. _Someone's been pissing me off lately. I unno why. Nakakainis na yung sobrang kaartehan niya. I mean, hindi na nga kami magkasundo... sometimes when she comes near me I feel like moving away. Ewan ko ba... nagkakatinginan na lang kami ni Bevs pag lumalapit siya. I feel uncomfortable around her now... unlike before. We used to be SO close. I unno what happened. I guess I got fed up with her ka-plastikan. Over na kasi. Jeez.

Field trip sucked to the damn core. Pictures soon.

Lapit na rin sem break and exam. Hay... I'm failing school. How am I gonna get into Ateneo/La Salle/UST? ULOL. WAHAHHAA.

Sassy Girl on 19th and 28th! Woot woot. Yeah I'm watching it twice with different peoplesss. Wahahha. Okay I'm high. I guess I needta go to sleep.

Chow. Wurf. Meow. Bye.

field trip pix! part one


7.37 am. Great view eh?

7.38 am. View two.

9.13 am. Paete, Laguna.

9.20 am. IV-Rizal.

9.30 am. glenn&delot

9.31 am. delot.

9.51 am. kath, me, glenn.

9.51 am. selected cuties from makiling. wakekeke XPP.

9.52 am. same.

9.53 am. III-Makiling.


10.15 am. nice.

10.22 am. haha jugueta and the banca.

10.22 am. same.

10.22 am. same.

10.27 am. cuties of makiling.

10.28 am. couples? NAH. me, jorge, bevs, nathan.

10.29 am. uuyyy. bagay. bevs, nathan.

10.30 am. jugueta and the banca pt. II

10.30 am. same.

10.36 am. burog boys.

More at my MULTIPLY

CHAMPIONS BABY!!!

WOOT WOOT. Damn right we are. JUNIORS RULE! HEHE. Kahit ako, di makapaniwala. Imagine? For the first time in history, Juniors ruled over the Seniors in CHEERING? WAHW pareh. HEAVY.

Kala nga namin... we won't get anything. For one thing, we were so un-prepared. Out of the 12 dancers, only 4 had the complete costumes. So 8 of us didn't have the shorts. So we decided to wear the top, the choker, and jeans. YES. Jeans. San ka pa? Where did you ever see cheering with jeans? HEHE. Astig maging iba. So, we just went through with it losing all the hope we had before the competition. Before the actual thing we thought we would get a LOT of awards since the costume design was real nice, and our number was unique. We thought we would get the award for best in costume and most colorful. But then when the day of the contest proper came, we thought we would even lose over the freshmen! But then... sabi nga nila, bilog ang mundo. Ü when the judge person was announcing the winners, we were all sitting there all sad and not expecting to get anything. She finished announcing the special awards and of course, the seniors got most of it. We didn't even get ONE. Then the judge announce who got 2nd place. Sophies. Okay, so we have a chance. Sophies was def. better than the freshmen. We thought we would be first place since it would be IMPOSSIBLE for us to win, but when the judge announced the seniors were first place and JUNIORS were CHAMPIONS, we all jumped with joy. Graveh. They were crying mann. Shet. Buti nga. Karma lang yan.

I kept on remembering the day when we were both practicing on the grounds. Yung seniors ndun sa basketball court and we were on the volleyball court. When we were doing our dance they were watching us. Next thing we know they were dancing some of our moves. Holy crap. WHATTA BEEEEP. We were all so mad but we didn't say anything. Tapos sila pa may ganang mag-accuse na copy-paste kami? HELL FRICKEN NO. Kafal huh. Tama lang yan. Kala niyo kasi... porket seniors kayo kaya niyo nang i-bully ang juniors huh? HMPTH.

So after that, we continously get dirty looks and cut eyes from numerous seniors. Meron pang mga parinig. Nakakairita... pero we didn't care. We were already announced champions... wala na silang magagawa. They kept on saying they only lost because theirs was over the time limit. HELLO? Siyempre there's other factors why they lost. Maybe because we were actually BETTER than them and they should fricken know that by now. Now, hindi ako nagyayabang. Sinasabi ko lang yung totoo. They should know better cause they're older than us and they should be matured. And for the people who kept on saying "Kayo lalaban sa inter-roosevelt huh... bahala kayo." fine. we don't need you. There's alot of other students in Roosevelt. And to their respectable trainor, you should teach them proper manners. Dapat hindi mo sila kinukunsinti. You should know the word SPORTSMANSHIP. Hindi yung ikaw pa nangunguna sa kanila. Tama ba naman na he slammed the cubicle door on front of Bevs, Posai and I in the washroom when we were about to change? Gad, we had to go out the damn washroom cause it was invaded by fourth years and it looked like they wanted to kill us.

Buti pa si Kuya Jeff. We were already saying alot of things when they started copying us and he was the one who told us to stop cause there's something called KARMA. Yun nga, nakarma tuloy sila. ULOL. Buti nga.

We had a volleyball game against seniors today too. GAD, parang ng-aasar pa tuloy kami cause we were all smiling and shit. WAHAHA. They beat us anyway. But not by alot. The most was 5 points on one of the sets. Not too bad. Considering Maaba was making parinig during the game. Napagalitan tuloy ni Mam Flores. =P. Hmm... Anson after that... then went home. Kasabay ko si Jorge and Nathan. Hmpth, mga cheap, di man lang ako ilibre ng pamasahe... buti pa si Nool pag nakakasabay ko... nililibre ako XP hehe.

GAD. Today's practice was so... painful. Nasugatan yung palm ko, tapos ang sakit pa niya... parang nabali na di mo malaman. Tapos natapilok ako kanina, so my left foot hurts when you move it. Then I feel like I still have pebbles in my back. Gosh... I think I'm gonna die tomorrow. We don't have enough rest. Jeezas.

Muntik pa kong mahulog kanina sa liftings.

I didn't even get my costume. We have to pick it up tomorrow morning at 5. And we have to meet in school at 4. Holy crap. So what time am I gonna leave home? Like... 3.30 or something? HOLY. Who's gonna do our hair&make up? And what shoes am I gonna wear? I don't have a plain white running shoes. And we also have a game tomorrow I think. Gosh, this is us soo un-prepared.

The seniors was pissing me off a while ago too. They were calling us copy-paste and shit. HELLER. Look who's talking? It takes one to fricken know one. Holy crap, like... they copied most of our steps, and it just happened that one of our liftings were the same with theirs. Crap mann... we were practicing that stuff in Marikina Sports' Center so how were we supposed to copy them? GAD.

I also realized, he will pick Khia over me anytime. I asked them to come with me to drink and Khia was still there then James said "kayo na lang" or something of the sort. That hurt me like hell. And to think I was teasing someone because someone2's friends told us it's not true that someone2 likes someone. Gets? ;)

Paolo and I had a fight today. All because of James. Before the practice started (in church), I was telling Nic about James... about what Bevs told me and what happened recently, etc. So we were so busy talking I never realized Paolo was already there listening to what we were talking about. When I looked at him I smiled and was about to go near him when he went out the room. GAD. Disaster. So Nic and I followed him to the Lib. The convo was something like this.

Me: Oi Pao, hello naman diyan oh. (I sit beside him but he moves away.)
Nico: Pre, what's wrong? Badtrip ka yata...
Me: Anu ba yan huh... ngaun na nga lang tau magkikita ulet tapos ganyan ka pa...
Nic: What's wrong ba?
'Me: Oi salita ka naman...
Pao: Nothing. Leave me alone.(Nic whispered something to me but I didn't understand.)
Me: Pao naman eh... (Nic goes out the room.)
Me: Ano ba?
Pao: Wala nga...
Me: So bakit ka ganyan?
Pao: You tell me.
Me: C'mon. Ano ba?
Pao: Figure it out. You and Nic were talking in loud whispers, without realizing I was there. And what do I hear?
Me: Yun ba? I was just telling him about... James.
Pao: That's it! You were talking about James. Am I supposed to be happy about that?
Me: Ano ka ba? Yun lang eh... and babaw mo! (I was starting to get pissed.)
Pao: Mababaw pala eh. So tell me, wouldn't you get hurt if you hear James talking about Khia?
Me: Paolo ano ka ba. Yun lang eh. Sinasabi ko lang kay Nic...
Pao: Don't make me look stupid. I heard what you said. Now by the time comes that you completely forgot about him, maybe then you could talk to me again. (walks out of the lib and slams the door shut. I was sitting there dumb-founded and shocked, feeling a lump in my throat).

Yeah. His last line was playing over and over in my head. That ^ was his exact line. GAD. He didn't even say bye to me when we went home, so Nic had to drop me off my house. He didn't call, he didn't even text me. I'm so scared. When I saw James I wanted to chop him into pieces then burn him so he'll be gone in this world. I feel so bad. I called him today but his mom said he hasn't been home. I texted him but no reply. His phone was off. I was so worried. Until Nic calls me and says he's at his house in Monte. I don't even know the number there. I want to talk to him.

GAD. Cheering in 8 hours. Wish us luck guys.