I'll set aside the Buwan ng Wika thing cause I need to express myself.

I should stop reminiscing about things that I can never bring back. About things that are just in the past and will stay in the past. I should stop browsing through old pictures and reading old entries in my diary. I should stop listening to stupid love songs that will make me feel much worse than I already do. I should stop pitying myself. He's gone. He's not coming back. He won't come back. So why the hell do I expect him to accidentally dial my number and fix things up with me?

Maybe it wasn't really meant to be. Maybe it really was just... nothing. Spur of the moment thing. A fling. Pseudo relationship or not even close. GAHD I don't know. Things are so confusing.

Everything reminds me of him. Why can't my brain just crash or shut down or something so I can reformat it. Erase everythin so I can start all over again. So I can start living my life without thinking if he was fine or if he already slept or something. SHIIIZZ. Why am I wasting so much time thinking about him when he probably isn't thinking about me anymore? What if he already erased me from his memory? What if he aleady got over his feelings for me? It's just too late.

Pwede bang sabihin mo "maghihintay ako sayo"...