0207 // cheering.

Can I just comment how everything is not going our way?

First thing. We just started practicing BARELY a day ago. We had a permit to use the GROUNDS, KARAOKE, MIKE, and everything that we need until 6 pm. (Bato bato sa langit, tamaan or makakabasa nito wag magagalit) The Juniors are being a brat. Not letting us use the karaoke and the grounds. FRIG? Last year, when we were juniors, we didn't have attitude problems. We shared the karaoke and the grounds (tho kami lagi yung nagbibigay for the GROUNDS part. kung saan ma-tripan ng seniors, dun sila.) BUT WHY THE HELL ARE THEY DOING THIS? Like, do they REALLY want the title that bad? What does it mean to be the champion anyway? It's just a title. You won't take that with you until you die. Is it such a big deal for you guys?

So we let that pass. We agreed to just use the social hall and use our own player. Today, we made another letter asking for permission to stay in school until 7. They didn't let us. WTF. UGHH. Our trainor can only see us at around 6. And we are dismissed at 4. The juniors gets dismissed at 3. See the time frame? Shiz.

Another thing we don't like about the Juniors' attitudes is, they're only allowed until 5. After that, WE are the ones supposed to use the grounds. BUT they don't leave until WE leave. So what's the use? It's like they're using OUR authority as well.

It's like we give and we give and what do we gain? NOTHING.

UGGGHHH. I can't believe how they're acting. It's like they're the SENIORS. GAHD. It's our last year. Give us a fricken chance. If you're looking for revenge, GAHD, give us a break. It's so fricken childish. It's not worth fighting over. When we were juniors, we were so humble. You guys have had your attitude problems since you stepped your feet into that school.

And the teachers aren't co-operating as well. They give us soooo much work. Kamusta naman yung ALL SELF CHECKS of the whole book. Computerized, answered, to be passed second week of October. What the frrriiigg. WE JUST DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME.

MS. ROOSEVELT this Friday. 6pm. We're dancing to Buttons by PCD and Who's It. So yeah. Support us :).

0206 // birthday wishes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIROJINI KATHIR!

Ew. So you're 17 as well. So who's an old fart now HUH? LOL. I'm sorry I can't send you an e-card (fine, I'll try) but whatever. I miss you man. We've been through so much shit and yet we haven't tried mowing the lawn *wink wink* yet. REMEMBER THAT? LOL. We tried to get some off of BISCUIT and that ANKOR guy. Haha. Was it Ankor? I unno. It's a name to that effect. Shiiiit. I miss all the laugh trips and other shit man. I wonder what it'd be like if I spent my university life there. LOL. Or the rest of my high school life. After grad, we would've went on that stupid roadtrip we've been wishing for with Talha and Apple and Sathesan and Bianca. MY GAHD. We had so much stupidness back in Grade 8.

We still haven't done that album. The songs we "wrote" are still missing. We still hadn't done our "music video" using Ashy's quick cam. LOL. Our stupid website (that I don't even remember the URL) is probably deleted now. LOL. OH MAN. I remember we just laugh everything off. YOU, ME, and ASHY. Haha. I remember we would want to watch cartoons with each other. LMFAO. Us and our gay relationships.

LOL. Nicko is busy with his University life. I don't even remember what school he goes to now. He e-mails me once in a while but I get too lazy to read them. Last e-mail I read, he has a Flip girlfriend. SHIZ. LOL. That rich bastard sent me a package last christmas. *sigh*. I still have to send you your airbrushed shirt eh? With my face on it. LMFAO. And that stupid dogtag I've been wishing for. MAN. You sperm-wanter!

If you can only read my lj. The past comments are so damn funny. I remember that part about Mary Kate and Ashley designing clothes for WALMART yet they wear PRADA and GUCCI and shit. And you should sign in to your friendster account. I think I remember a testimonial about some hotdog guy or something. LOL. Try to remember your password, ass.

I MISS YOU. I hope when I get there, you won't make fun of my FOB accent. Yeah. I admit it now. I'm now only part-GANGSTARR. I'm now Flip-washed. LMFAO. We'll still read our journals back in gradeschool and you'd teach me easy piano pieces. I wish I'd be there when you turn legal so we can drive down the highway in your brand new car while drinking bottles of vodka and BAILEY's, smoking weed while blasting some good music and making fun of your rich ass fobbish classmates from Agincourt. Now that's the life eh? ;)

0205 // all that was left.

An excerpt from my actual entry in my personal journal.

I could've got in the Top 10. The Top fricken 10. I know I could. I could've back in junior year, but another thing got in the way. This time, when I know for a fact that I really could, another UBER stupid thing got in the way. the only difference is this time, it's such a stupid stupid stupid thing that I want to bang my head against the wall and constantly blame myself. See, I have this first-period sickness. Malas na lang ng subject na matatapat sa first period, cause almost always, it's either I'll be late or I won't be present at all. FRIG. All my effort gone to waste. WHAT THE HELL. It's TLE. TLfrickenE. Mrs. Salvador loves me off. I recite. I do everything. Why the hell didn't she just give me a fricken 80? She didn't have to give me a fricken line of 7 to push me to start going to school early. FRIG. It pains me to think about it. All my fucking effort gone to waste.

FRIG. Doesn't she understand what the hell she's done now? I should effing rub my report card on her face so she'll realize how much of an asshole she's been. LET HER LOOK AT IT CLOSELY. She's the only teacher who gave me a fricken line of 7. She should see all the line of 9s and 8s beside her below mediocre 76. WTF? I have never been given that kind of grade in my entire life.

Watch. I'm gonna do better. I'll make her feel like crap for putting that kind of grade in my report card. I'll make her feel like crap for taking away that one thing that only needed one measly step for me to reach. I could've been in the Top 10. THINK ABOUT IT. Tito would've been so damn proud of me. And it'd look so damn good on my records once I get into college. HOLY CRAP. I FRICKEN HATE HER GUTS RIGHT NOW.

STOP IT. These "I could have"s can't do anything about MY mistake. But still. She should've at least gave me a chance. She even told Tita that my grade is supposed to be 88, but because of my lates and absences, she deducted 12 points? WTF? ANLABO AMF. An 80 would've been fine. I worked hard din naman ah? WTF right? UGH. I fricken cried in front of her while she was talking to Tita. And she had the guts to say "I hope you're not mad at me."? WTF??? THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU DID. You frigging hope I'm not mad at you? ARE YOU FRICKEN STUPID OR WHAT? Who wouldn't be mad? I now LOATHE your guts. You just HAD to ruin EVERY FRICKEN THING I worked hard on because of ONE stupid grade. I HOPE YOU DROP DEAD RIGHT FRICKEN NOW.

UGH. That 76 looks so fucking ugly on my report card.

ANYWAY. Thinking about that stupid crap is just making me hate her more. How many times have I cried because of that. CRYING WON'T DO ANYTHING anyway. I guess I just have to prove myself. I'm gonna pull that effing 76 up to the 88 I was supposed to get.

We finished learning the steps to Buttons already. Grabe. We looked like... uhm... whatcha-call-those-dancers. LOL. Pero I guess it's fine. We were joking around pa nga that after we dance that, the teachers would probably expel us or something. LOL. But whatevs. UGH. I probably looked like an idiot dancing to that. I CAN NOT DANCE. Haha. Oh well.

CHEERING PRACTICE ON MONDAY! I'm so fricken EXCITED. 2nd year in a row as champions perhaps? Let's see :).

0204 // peaceful and deep.

I should've obeyed Tita and drank my medicine yesterday. I thought I wouldn't get worse. RAWR. I should've known better.

I got to school and I was a bit fine. Until some annoying creature who was told me something made my ears throb with anger. Frig, she's so annoying. And I really care because? You're sucha fricken... ugh. FLIRT.

So yeah. Mrs. Salvador got kinda mad at me pa cause the moment I entered, eveyrone turned their heads cause I was calling Justin. HAHAHAHA. Ampucha. Eon. We weren't supposed to attend Physics cause of the program nga, pero Mrs. Martin got mad and said she won't excuse us cause she didn't receive a memo, but we didn't have class anyway cause she was called down. So fricken useless.

The program. Fun isn't the right word. More like boring. But you know what I love about these speakers is they are so galante. Hahahaha. They always give out a hundred bucks for making us answer "hard" questions. Haha. But whatevs. I MC-eed. We had Jolibee for lunch. Woot. Haha. I love bein an officer in Interact. Plus nanaman sa long test/monthly test! LOL.

Anyway, after lunch, my headache became worse and I was a bit dizzy. So I went to the clinic and I stayed there for two whole hours. Same with Marian and Karen. Haha. We slept. It's fun yo. LOL. We should do that more often. But yeah. We missed Filipino and Research. I honestly don't care tho. Filipino sucks. Buuuut my temperature went higher when I left the clinic. I'm guessing it's because of the ac. SHIIIZ. Add the fact that it rained after school. Buti na lang, Fornal was so nice. He lent me his umbrella. Hehe.

Ayun. ARGH. I forgot what I was gonna write... OH. Ay, nevermind na lang. Confidential. Wahaha.

One thing I hate more than anything in the world is having someone else use my pc. ARGH. When I turned this on today, the CD in my drive is MISSING. FRIIIIG. That CD contains my LIFE. Like, all the songs that I downloaded and ish since I don't save it in my hard drive kasi it'll take so much space diba? Ayun, I found out that Lola let someone I DON'T KNOW open this and browse through it and stuff. SHIZ. I was so pissed it's not funny. ARGH. I was almost close to tears cause I couldn't find the damn CD. Pero Lola found it so ayun. Nawala galit ko. Haha. Kaazar lang kasi the person didn't put it back. It was much better if I hadn't known someone else messed with my pc eh. Kaazar talaga.

Yun lang. Nanlalabo na mata ko and I can't write in proper english anymore. HAHA. I hope I get better soon. -___-"

0203 // a secret that i never could keep.

I have a fever slash cold slash cough and my head hurts. I blame it all on the "drastic" change in weather.

I'm dizzy. I don't know what else to write. Shiz. I WANNA GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. I hope this won't get worse.


with the birthday girl yza. :)

daming food!

with hetty naman! haha.

♥ it.

we're too cool furreal.

BOREDOM KILLS.

0202 // HUWAW. it's september.

GAH.

Modesty aside, our group did REALLY well on the play. LOL. We never thought that our presentation will be on the same level as group 1's (oo, nasindak kami TEATRO SENTENARYO ba naman eh), but HELL, we had the same grade. 89. FRIG. Hahaha :)

I was so nervous too. Well, we all were, pero I swear. Haha. I was behind the curtain, their scripts on hand (I was the "director") and I noticed I was shaking. Frig, haha. I was so scared they'd forget their lines and everything, but they were good! Pero sablay si Tubaran eh. He forget a chunk. Shiz. Pero that's fine. I don't think they noticed eh. Haha. Dexter! LOL. I never knew he could act. Pablo's character suits him so well.

Eto lang complaint ko. Para dun sa certain Group 1 member. PUCHA, ANG YABANG MO. Shiz, you think you're better than everyone. Get over yourself. Hindi ka nakakatuwa. Buti sana kung maganda ka eh. Pucha, ano ba ginawa mo? Wala diba? EXTRA. Bwiset, nakakaasar ka. Magsalita ka kung malaki yung role mo. Kung na PROVE mo yung sinasabi mo. Oo, alam ko opinyon mo yun, syempre, grupo mo yun eh, pero please lang ha, think about what WE would feel. Eh kung grupo niyo kaya sabihan namin ng ganun? LECHE. Hindi na kami nag-expect for ourselves. We thought na lang na your group will do better kasi nga, you're well prepared compared to us. Hindi mo na kailangang questionin yung grade na binigay ng judge. AS IF NAMAN na we'd care about that. All we cared about was to PRESENT SOMETHING. Kahit na barubal, basta hindi lang mapahiya. Ansakit naman na pagdudahan mo pa yung isang judge, just because she gave a MUCH higher grade to our group than yours. Anong sinasabi mo, hindi kami deserving? We worked hard din naman ah. Shiz. Tapalan mo kasi yang bunganga mo. Lalo na kung hindi mo alam yung sinasabi mo. Wag ka na lang magsalita kung hindi rin lang maganda lalabas dyan sa bibig mo. aldkjfoawbefoaseporjpqojiojeow shit. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW FRICKEN MAD I AM.

Ayan. Tinagalog ko na ah, para maintindihan mo. Alam ko kasi mejo illiterate ka eh. Baka kasi di mo maintindihan yung FLUENT ENGLISH. Tsaka baka kasi mabigyan mo pa ng ibang meaning. Sundin mo yung payo ko ah? Para naman umayos-ayos yang buhay mo at magkaroon ka ng totoong kaibigan. Baguhin mo na rin yung ugali mo in the process. Feeling ka eh.

DISCLAIMER. Wag na lang kayong mag-react kung hindi niyo alam kung sino to. Bato bato sa langit, tamaan, wag magalit. ISANG TAO lang ang tinitira ko. HINDI LAHAT NG GROUP 1. Love ko group 1, yung ISANG TAO lang na yun nagpasira. WAG MAGREACT KUNG WALANG ALAM.

Ayan. My rant is done. Shiz. I'm still pissed off tho. I'm getting this close to exploding. Everything she's been doing have been piling up and I swear, if I get more pissed than I am now, I'm gonna tell her off furreal. I don't give a crap. She's been acting like a mofo and I hate it.

So yeah. Mrs. Jabal was so proud of us ah. Haha. :) Because of that, we're gonna do another play for our project + a long test in MARCH. Haha. I know. That's soooooo FAR away, but what the hell. Mrs. Jabal wants it to be perfect. Annnnnd it's supposed to be a REAL play. Like... with real props and everything. LOL. Whatever. Oh, we're doing New Yorker in Tondo btw. Goodluck to us diba? Haha. Whatevs. We can pull it off XP


GAY kargador! hahahaha :) kidding justin XP

group 2.

my camwhore buddy.